For the joy of being 'Me' :)

 An ordinary day, same ordinary life ! Life has changed so much since I started writing this blog.

I was a carefree, an absolute carefree bird ! No responsibilities, no nuances. No reminders of setting limits. No worry of being the absolute calm and composed parent which is so unlike my free spirited and impulsive personality . Not that I don't like the role of being a parent. Sometimes its the identity crisis that gets difficult to deal with. And specially when you need to parent an equally free spirited and impulsive child, who is the king of his own life. Thanks to my younger one for keeping me on my toes though.

When I look back, I realise how important were those little moments of joy in my own life. How important were those decisions of finding joy in things I absolute believed in.  For leaving a good job and moving to a different city just because I loved coastal life and sun and beaches ! Staying near a beach even if I had to travel like 3 hours to and fro for office everyday. 

Connecting with people, kids on road, talking to them, understanding their perspectives. just  being in total self and absolute love with myself. 

Being totally responsible for my own flaws and for things that made me eccentric and beautiful in my own way. I was never an easy child to deal with, for the reasons of always standing out and choosing a different path ! 

I am a bird to the core who wants to fly as much as she can without restrictions, and yet I end up scolding my elder one for the same reasons. For being someone who believes in his own rules, and negating to follow what's told to be done !! 

This is kind of an introspective write-up . I need to understand my needs and his needs. People like us hate :  HATE being told to do things in a certain way. We want to be the creator of our own destiny. 

I guess its time for me to write a bit more, understand what I really was and let him also be what he really wants to be ! Its in the genes and going against him is like going against my own free spirited self. Which I have actually started doing a lot in these years. 

Looking forward to write more and connecting more with my inner self. One thing that made me stick to life in my gloomy times :)